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New Year Resolutions and Actually Committing lmao

First off Alohaii released Patchwork and I love it, Luxury is so good owo

But my actual song recommendation is ORESAMA Gimme because i’ve not stopped listening to it LOL

I kind of want to talk about my last year! Personally, i think it really well!

I got a good grade on my Graphics Course. Just generally put myself out there more and I’m super proud of myself, which is something kind of rare for me.

I also neglected a lot of areas of my life. I barely spoke to a lot of my good friends. I didn’t go out much. My physical health hasn’t been great, I got incredibly sick a lot so uh, I don't really want to put my body through all of that again this year. This is my self care year :o) I’m not enjoying it a lot but I simply have to make the most of it for the next 5 months.

So my resolutions are….

1. be a better friend

For reference, all my friends are very cool.
For me this is just responding to messages on time. I take like 2 weeks or just forget altogether, or i’m like, well, when is it socially acceptable to respond to a message because it’s been 3 months and I just never do and it’s really bad honestly.

So, less of that.
Just trying to be the first to check on how other people are doing for once.

2. Be more active online (maybe)

Just put myself out there more? Maybe I'll even put my status online on discord for once.

...maybe.

I think this is less about being online, and more so just being able to communicate with people outside of my friend group better. I just generally avoid people since I don’t want anyone to think I’m really annoying, which I am. Apparently people like being pestered with affection and questions about their life so I’ll do more of that.

3. Actually upload Radical Daydreamers

This was for last year actually and honestly I got close! I actually uploaded (it's not up anymore so a few chapters on wattpad (don't even try to look for it). but then I decided to rewrite it again. This is rewrite 4 of its current iteration. I think recently I might have developed the instant gratification issue that modern media seems to have. Aka having a lack of setup or setup period and immediate payoff to keep engagement high.

I don’t think I’ve actually update the about section on the actual webpage so i’ll just put a TDLR, basically its urban high fantasy Mob Psycho 100 + Fairy Tale. Sorry if that doesn’t make any sense.

It’s about a witch (not my self-sona, she’s way cooler) who simply wants to keep to herself, work with her familiar, and live in the mountains alone researching forever but apparently there are laws and stuff; you can’t just wander around places where magic nukes hit like 200 years ago so she has to go to magic school and work with people to get verified, after saving the life of another student, he’s determined to make sure she has a typical exciting school life but it’s really not what she wants.

She's just not very outgoing and it's mostly the fact she's fine to be the mild person that she is. It's a very personal piece of work honestly and I’ve always struggled on how best to handle a story like that. I’m not afraid of killing my darlings per say but it's a constant cycle of “how can this be better/more interesting” in the fantasy action elements so I have to tear everything down and make it sicker. The bad thing is it works. It’s so sick now.

But yeah not that much interesting happens outside of that fervent rejection of social expectations until the conclusion of Year 1, which was the original ending, so I'm just going to try to format it in more of a short story silly adventure kind of way, with Year 2 being significantly more interesting in terms of action. I also rewrote the ending of Year 3.

Wonder what that could be about.

Anyways I know that might be considered “bad writing” and a “good story” should be able to be told concisely in one book but this has been my active dissociation for about…as long as I’ve been able to think? So uh. Yeah.

The thing is, I actually did a lot of writing in 2025. I feel that since I’ve started writing, my descriptive skills have improved but I’m still very much finding my voice as a writer, as well as adjusting existing work to add images alongside it to supplement fight scenes. I’m not great at writing those yet.
I would like to upload some excerpts again or something but I’m quite insecure about it and not really sure how to go about doing it. Something to think about for sure.

I was working on this in the late part of the year, I tried to make an oc wiki. It’s lacking a lot.

I think a big issue is that a lot of my characters are very vague outside of their role in the story. Like, I’m struggling to write things about them like hobbies and daily activities because they feel so big in my head and the space for them was there and it's not really translating how I’d like it to onto Google Docs.

There isn’t really a solution to that except to write more. I did do a LOT of writing of actual scenes and I don’t think it’s bad, I think its just my overly critical personalty but if I want to never shut the fuck up about my oc’s there has to be a bit more substance than whats there in a separate place from canon story.

That’s about it, I’m applying to uni this year. I really should have done it last year because writing a personal statement is making me STRESSED. It’s also due in 48 hours and I wrote too much so I have no idea what to take out, so I should probably get back to that so I actually have a future in my dying industry? Maybe? Also I need to finish my giga review blog i was meant to do in november?? I just wrote way too much about how much I dislike how Helluva Boss is so there’s a lot of typos.

(Update)

Since it's the 12th of Jan I should probably say I forgot to reply to someone for 4 days and missed a job application deadline and forgot I was meant to join an Unvale art contest and my someone sat on my ipad so now im in debt for a little bit so YEAH THINGS ARE GOING GREAT!!!! Also the president got kidnapped so I don’t have super high hopes this year.

lowkey i want this year to be over already.